Mixed Emotions.

I have always spent so much of emotions, time & energy, concentrating on searching for the wrong answers to the wrong questions only to be stuck at a static mode feeling all drained for the moment.

I have spent these past few years being in love & that is where it all started. When all of your emotions just jumbled into one. This stupid thing called Love. Ironic isnt it? They say its real when it hurts. But does it always have to be that way?

 

It is only a matter of time, I come to realization that this path of love may not be easy, but for as long as we understood the meaning of loving each other, nothing else matters. Nothing else at all. 

Letting things/situations be & letting them grow & evolve is one of my many many biggest challenge. I think that most of the time we’re so busy looking at the shitty things/people around us that we can’t even see how beautiful things are just beyond that.

I have this horrible & wonderful feeling. Well, I cant decide which is winning. But I'm not gonna get this negative vibes get to me. Not today at least.

Life's simple philosophy.

This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Sooner or later we realize that we are not here to change ourselves, fix ourselves, improve ourselves or transform ourselves. We are simply here to meet ourselves, accept ourselves, love ourselves & just be ourselves.

Worth it.

Time in motion life's challenges. Living in this life has taught me a lot of lessons.If I want all that life has to offer,I will hold my head up high & expect to receive it. Imma give all that I have & then hold fast & believe that I can do it!

I will not accept whatever life has to offer me &I will never settle for less! I will get from life what I deserve & I will look to get it ALL. Let it be material things, love/just something in life which I hope for,I won't lower my standards because I know that I am worth so much more! -ℬℯℓℓℯ ℬℯℓℓℯ

My inner strength.

I know sometimes I'm like a child, I often disappoint you & you keep forgiving me. When I stumble & fall & need support & love desperately, you're always there for me. When I feel like giving up & letting go, you whisper to me, "You can get through this baby". 

You're the man who manages to hold my heart dearly & not break it. You're my best friend, my inner strength & the only man in this world I can afford to love so much (besides my dad & bro.) 

Quarter of a century.

Turning a year older tomorrow & hopefully a year wiser. I have learned that when I am true to myself I am happiest. There are people out there who are always there to love & support me for who I am. My parents, my bro, my better half & genuine friends.

I know that I need to embrace my childlike, feminine & slightly quirky attitude. However, those are the things that bring the most joy & laughter into my every-day life. Dear Lord, thank your blessings on me. Thank you for blessing me with a wonderful family & an amazing better half! Am beyond blessed & am truly grateful!

Cheers to another year of imperfections but with a better grasp on the woman I was created to be. 

Life never gives us another chance so enjoy

every moment of life like every day is a birthday