Doubts.

Have you even give up on something because you either thought you would never do well enough for it, or that it was too difficult and not worth all your time? I have. Also along the way I have started to doubt myself and everything I believe in. I have grown distant from the person that I once was, & have grown into someone who constantly tries to live up to expectations surrounding my studies & at the same time, trying to juggle responsibilities as well.  

Realization hits me that I've been giving in too much to my emotions lately. I question myself everyday if I'm good enough to explore the things that I've never thought I'm capable of, if I'm good enough to love myself, if I'm good enough to not let my parents down with their high expectations on me, if I'm good enough for YOU or simply, if I'm good enough to understand anything at all.

At times I just wanna run away from matters because of the insufficient courage I have & the lack of faith, especially in believing & hope.

Believe.

Its like my heart drank Red Bull cause it just won't stop racing! I'm so nervous & I think I'm gonna pass out anytime soon! Sometimes, the only thing we can do is wake up each day & dream up a world in which we could live in. Sometimes, the only way is to have hope & in spite of it all, we hold our head up high & take on whatever comes our way knowing that all ends well. Alright. Enough said. In dire need of all the luck in the world.  

Today I could be content, but if I woke up tomorrow, I want to be living life worth being contented for. 

 

2 years & 3 months.

When I need someone to laugh with, you are always there. When I need someone to lean on, you are always there. When I'm silly & stupid, you are always there! LOL! & in times of sorrow & times of joy, you are always there for me.

You are not looking for perfection, not judgmental. You are patient, kind, thoughtful & everything nice! You posses all the qualities one could possibly want. Happy Anniversary to us. 2 years & 3 months & still counting! ♥