Life's simple philosophy.

This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Sooner or later we realize that we are not here to change ourselves, fix ourselves, improve ourselves or transform ourselves. We are simply here to meet ourselves, accept ourselves, love ourselves & just be ourselves.

Worth it.

Time in motion life's challenges. Living in this life has taught me a lot of lessons.If I want all that life has to offer,I will hold my head up high & expect to receive it. Imma give all that I have & then hold fast & believe that I can do it!

I will not accept whatever life has to offer me &I will never settle for less! I will get from life what I deserve & I will look to get it ALL. Let it be material things, love/just something in life which I hope for,I won't lower my standards because I know that I am worth so much more! -ℬℯℓℓℯ ℬℯℓℓℯ

My inner strength.

I know sometimes I'm like a child, I often disappoint you & you keep forgiving me. When I stumble & fall & need support & love desperately, you're always there for me. When I feel like giving up & letting go, you whisper to me, "You can get through this baby". 

You're the man who manages to hold my heart dearly & not break it. You're my best friend, my inner strength & the only man in this world I can afford to love so much (besides my dad & bro.) 

Quarter of a century.

Turning a year older tomorrow & hopefully a year wiser. I have learned that when I am true to myself I am happiest. There are people out there who are always there to love & support me for who I am. My parents, my bro, my better half & genuine friends.

I know that I need to embrace my childlike, feminine & slightly quirky attitude. However, those are the things that bring the most joy & laughter into my every-day life. Dear Lord, thank your blessings on me. Thank you for blessing me with a wonderful family & an amazing better half! Am beyond blessed & am truly grateful!

Cheers to another year of imperfections but with a better grasp on the woman I was created to be. 

Life never gives us another chance so enjoy

every moment of life like every day is a birthday

Doubts.

Have you even give up on something because you either thought you would never do well enough for it, or that it was too difficult and not worth all your time? I have. Also along the way I have started to doubt myself and everything I believe in. I have grown distant from the person that I once was, & have grown into someone who constantly tries to live up to expectations surrounding my studies & at the same time, trying to juggle responsibilities as well.  

Realization hits me that I've been giving in too much to my emotions lately. I question myself everyday if I'm good enough to explore the things that I've never thought I'm capable of, if I'm good enough to love myself, if I'm good enough to not let my parents down with their high expectations on me, if I'm good enough for YOU or simply, if I'm good enough to understand anything at all.

At times I just wanna run away from matters because of the insufficient courage I have & the lack of faith, especially in believing & hope.

Believe.

Its like my heart drank Red Bull cause it just won't stop racing! I'm so nervous & I think I'm gonna pass out anytime soon! Sometimes, the only thing we can do is wake up each day & dream up a world in which we could live in. Sometimes, the only way is to have hope & in spite of it all, we hold our head up high & take on whatever comes our way knowing that all ends well. Alright. Enough said. In dire need of all the luck in the world.  

Today I could be content, but if I woke up tomorrow, I want to be living life worth being contented for. 

 

2 years & 3 months.

When I need someone to laugh with, you are always there. When I need someone to lean on, you are always there. When I'm silly & stupid, you are always there! LOL! & in times of sorrow & times of joy, you are always there for me.

You are not looking for perfection, not judgmental. You are patient, kind, thoughtful & everything nice! You posses all the qualities one could possibly want. Happy Anniversary to us. 2 years & 3 months & still counting! ♥

My pillar of strength & support.

The one who is always there for me to pick me up when I'm feeling down & knows the best ways to cheer  me up! So blessed!

Bittersweet.

For the past few days I’ve been trying to look at things from a different perspective. But, something just won’t stop haunting me. All the what ifs and what might have been. When you’re living for a reason & that reason is gone, tears start falling while your heart’s breaking but there’s nothing you can do to stop things from withering & then everything goes wrong. You feel all alone. Well, people always say that there’s a time to laugh & a time to cry, a time to say hello & a time to say goodbye. There’s a time to love & not to love. A time to hold on & a time to let go. *shrugs*

YOU came & you’ve seen through me & I guess I did the same thing for you too. But, what we thought was nothing turned out to be something more than we could possibly think of. Something that from the start until the end, we weren’t able to & still could not define. You see, it’s not something that was brought about by anything, no reasons, it just happened. Just like that. 

Gahh! I dont know what to say now. Everything is inevitable, so peeps, when you have it or you’re in a most favorable & happy moments, you gotta make the most out of it, because once it’s gone you’ll regret that you let the chance pass without giving your all, but if you did give it your everything, you have a lot of happy times to reminisce & treasure for the rest of your life. Life is short peeps! xx

The health "Balance Sheet"

Our Birth is our Opening Balance.
Our Death is our Closing Balance.
Our Prejudiced Views are our Liabilities.
Our Creative Ideas are our Assets.
Heart is our Current Asset.
Soul is our Fixed Asset.
Brain is our Fixed Deposit.
Thinking is our Current Account.
Achievements are our Capital.
Character & Morals, our Stock-in-Trade.
Friends are our General Reserves.
Values & Behavior are our Goodwill.
Patience is our Interest Earned.
Love is our Dividend.
Children are our Bonus Issues.
Education is Brands / Patents.
Knowledge is our Investment.
Experience is our Premium Account.
The Aim is to Tally the Balance Sheet Accurately.
The Goal is to get the Best Presented Accounts Award.

Disorganized.

Feeling so emotional that I don’t know where to go & how to deal with the soreness on the surface of my soul. It has been a difficult & emotionally weird these couple of days. Nothing is happening to me & I am not displaced, but it feels like the world around me is being shaken. I can’t think. I can’t breathe. I don't know/what to feel. Okay am ending this post abruptly! x

Undefined.

You listen to me when I speak whether what I say makes sense or not. 

You never try to change me.

You accept me for who I am.

Thank You for everything Mr.Lover.

09.05.

Our souls together are completely intertwined! Happy Anniversary Baby! xx

Tick Tock Tick Tock

It's already the month of May! My goodness it only seems like yesterday that the month of April started! Exams are coming up.Yikes! Been extremely busy lately. With work especially. I'm slowly dying by this torturous,time consuming work loads at work & traveling here & there to get some stuff sorted. So so soooo knackered & deprived of sleep.Gotta end my entry right here. Till then peeps! Chao! 

Heartbeat.

I love the fact that when I'm around you, I can be myself & not worry about what you may think of me, because I know you love me for who I am. Your the one who clears my sorrow & wipes away my tears. Your the guy who makes me laugh & chases away my fears. I wish I could tell you how I feel but words cannot express the depth of love I have for you & each day is no less.

 ILY

||*jmcreations*|| - 20/04/2011

Hello peeps! Here are more cards from Ruby!

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Click HERE to view cards: (001 - 008)

For ready designed cards:

If the card is in stock, you will be able to get your card within 2-5 days.depending on the location. Otherwise, she'll need several additional days to make the card. There are times when the materials on a card might not be available at the time of ordering.  So during such cases, she'll replace the materials with something similar, upon your approval.

To personalize from our collection:
Let her know which card you want to personalize & how you want to personalize it. That will take approximately 3-6 days, depending on the degree of complexity. 

For customized cards:

Drop her an email : jmcreations@hotmail.my & she’ll work together with you.

Kindly take your time & browse through some of Ruby's artwork. She will work closely with you to ensure that your wishes & ideas are reflected on the cards. If you have any questions / request, please don't hesitate to contact her. 

 

 

Wake up!

Life is a series of pulls back & forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted. -Mitch Albom

Us.

For your kindness & patience, love & care.

For your optimistic mind towards our relationship,
& for everything you have given me in this world.

ILY.

source : milk toof

||*jmcreations*||

Hello all! Today's post will be a lil' different from my usual entries. I'm helping a close friend of mine, Ruby, promote her handmade cards. She enjoys making cards, trying new techniques & all sorts of paper crafting. She uses high quality papers & materials that ensures the cards given are keepsake - cards that can be kept a lifetime. Most importantly, all cards are made from the heart with love. 

The added personal touch of handmade cards gives any recipient a warm fuzzy feeling that leaves a tingling in one's heart. Ruby welcomes orders for cards, tags & notes for any occasion. She also does personalized cards upon request. No minimum order is required as well. Here are some of her creative works :

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For ready designed cards:

If the card is in stock, you will be able to get your card within 2-5 days.depending on the location. Otherwise, she'll need several additional days to make the card. There are times when the materials on a card might not be available at the time of ordering.  So during such cases, she'll replace the materials with something similar, upon your approval.

To personalize from our collection:
Let her know which card you want to personalize & how you want to personalize it. That will take approximately 3-6 days, depending on the degree of complexity. 

For customized cards:

Drop her an email : jmcreations@hotmail.my & she’ll work together with you.

Kindly take your time & browse through some of Ruby's artwork. She will work closely with you to ensure that your wishes & ideas are reflected on the cards. If you have any questions / request, please don't hesitate to contact her.

Stay tuned for more peeps! xx

Indescribable.

We fight, we yell, we get jealous, we cry, we feel pain, we hurt, we scream, we get frustrated, we get angry, we get upset, we break up & our emotions take us over. Often, stupidity gets in the way of what I'm we're truly feeling & I we argue.Why? There's this pain in me. Its a pain I cant describe. As I sit here typing this entry, tears run down my chubby face. Every muscle in my body tenses & my fragile heart pounds so hard I feel like it will kill me & am gonna die. 

The complications. The tears. The heartache.

There's gotta be more to life!

 

I’m too strong to stay here, yet too weak to leave. I’m too strong to hold it, yet too weak to breathe :'(

Hurricane.

No matter what, once in your life, someone will hurt you. That someone will take all that you are, & rip it into Pieces & they won’t even watch where the pieces land. But through the breakdown, you’ll learn something about yourself. You’ll learn that you’re strong. It occurs to me how close happiness & sadness are. So closely knitted together. Sometimes we need all the glue we can get, just to hold ourselves together.

 

At your weakest, you end up showing more strength; at your lowest you are suddenly lifted higher than you've ever been.  They all border one another, these opposites, and show how quickly we can be altered.

-Cecelia Ahern

Gift from the sea.

"When you love someone, you do not love them all the time, in exactly the same way, from moment to moment. It is an impossibility. It is even a lie to pretend to. And yet this is exactly what most of us demand. We have so little faith in the ebb and flow of life, of love, of relationships. We leap at the flow of the tide and resist in terror its ebb. We are afraid it will never return. We insist on permanency, on duration, on continuity; when the only continuity possible, in life as in love, is in growth, in fluidity - in freedom, in the sense that the dancers are free, barely touching as they pass, but partners in the same pattern.

The only real security is not in owning or possessing, not in demanding or expecting, not in hoping, even. Security in a relationship lies neither in looking back to what was in nostalgia, nor forward to what it might be in dread or anticipation, but living in the present relationship and accepting it as it is now. Relationships must be like islands, one must accept them for what they are here and now, within their limits - islands, surrounded and interrupted by the sea, and continually visited and abandoned by the tides."

-Anne Morrow Lindbergh 

My fur-ball.

My 'happy pill with fur'.

She never fails to cheer me up when I’m down. She's always stuck by my side (literally!).

Something to do//Someone to love//Something to hope for.

Life is crazy, harsh, unfair & at times, fcuked up unkind. It's always easier to look at the craziness & forget that life is also so beautiful if you're looking in the right places, with the right people. You know what? Maybe my life hasn’t been so chaotic, it’s just the world that is & the real trap is getting attached to any of it. 

I make plans. Try to map out my future. I make goals to achieve, places to go, things to see, people to meet. I chart straight routes not realizing that I've totally missed the whole point. It's never about rigid plans/straight roads. Dreams are always crushing when they don't come true. But it's the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable.

You see, life is not complicated. We make it so. I think it'll be so much easier to live this way then trying to figure out what someone is saying / not saying all the time, trying to read in between the lines & trying to understand the thought & the truth behind the word. 

It's difficult. It's easier to be around other people than yourself sometimes, because being with yourself means facing the truth about who you are & the truth about me is I'm more scared of being alone.  

Here before my eyes
Many roads ahead
Time for me to choose one way now
If I take a chance
What lies down the road
Feeling so confused

-Colbie Caillat

In love with hope.

God sings, we hum along & there are many melodies, but it's all one song - one same, wonderful, human song.

 

Carpe Diem!

I haven't written much, this month. Been busy coping with life, which hadn't been quite smooth-sailing. So many things happened. Half of the them involve my work, classes, peers, my gadgets & bills! Thank God for that one person who throughout the whole ordeal was with me *grins*

By the way, my compulsive eating habits are taking a toll on me! I've gained extra kgs & I'm close to looking like a seal now. No joke. I should seriously slow down. Eat way lesser & donate my meal money to the victims in Japan perhaps? 

 

The tsunami in Sendai was so devastating from the footage shown in the news. My heart goes out to all of those in Japan. God is with you peeps. Life is short. Eternity isn't. Dad reminded me that I'm in control of my own life. Things may wheedle their way in & try to take over. He said to pull in the reigns, reassess my priorities & keep a tight grip. I certainly believe that as humans we need to remember that each day could possibly be our last & that it is important we leave a legacy of love & truth & courage behind us. So peeps, live it to the fullest! Enjoy all that it has to offer. A P P R E C I A T E!

He most lives who thinks most,feels the noblest, acts  the best.

Mind over heart vs Heart over mind.

I’ve realized that life is what it is. I can’t speak for the rest of the world, but I only plan on living one life. Instead of constantly wishing I had taken a different path, I will take joy in living the life I am living right now. There is no reason to want more / less than what I presently have. The only thing I have control over is where I go from here. The past will always be the past & the present will always be a product of the past & the future will always be a mystery. That’s what should keep us going. Yes? No?

Sometimes following your heart isn't always the smartest/the best thing to do,but all u gotta do is pray that u made the right decision.

Ungrateful.

It amazes me how ungrateful people can really be. Some people are not going to be grateful. Some people are not going to appreciate anything that you do for them. They are just ungrateful by nature. Seriously, they think everything that comes their way is a birth right. They believe that people are obligated to help & serve them.  They expect things to be done for them automatically without a word of appreciation. Enough said. 

Flattery is from the teeth out. Sincere appreciation is from the heart out

The Script.

Doing things we haven't for a while,
A while ya,
We're smiling but we're close to tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time.

Marchie Boy.

Dogs are not our whole life, but they make our lives whole

And she wonders.

There’s always gonna be that one mistake you can't take back & that one memory you would do anything to have again! *shrugs*

Strange.

There are certain things that cannot be explained. Forget about getting someone else to understand as it is difficult to explain it to myself. But then again,if everything could be explained, it wouldn’t be as much fun. No? Sometimes, you long for something for so long & then one fine day when you're almost within reach, you realize you don’t want it anymore. 

I believe I'm one of the most complex creatures in the world.

Good Bye February!

We get hurt multiple times & keep running back to the same people.We love hard & hurt hard. We care too much. We’re never understood. We go through so much trouble when we don’t even notice. We hear what people say about us & sometimes we break inside. But no matter what, even after everything, we have to come out strong. We have to put a big smile on our faces and pretend like everything’s okay. We love even though we know we shouldn’t & we wait for something that’ll never happen. We’re so much more than what you think. So much more than what we seem. A very random post to end my entry for the month of February. Good Bye February! You certainly proved that I know how to pack a lot of stuff into a short month.

You're the apple to my pie.

So we've only known each other for a couple of years, but I feel I've known you my whole life. I've seen you grow. I've watched you change from the guy who couldn't make up his mind, who's feelings changed more than I knew was possible, to the guy you are now. *grins* You're responsible, devoted, loyal, considerate & loving. Everything I knew you were & know you always will be. I've seen everything, your anger, your battles, your struggles, your fears. I know you by heart. I know your values, I know your story, I know your secrets.

I still believe that, with all of my heart. I am still in this. I said I was in for the long haul & I am still striving everyday for our time. I'm not going down without a fight. I won't give up easy. These feelings are stronger than anything that could try to bring us down. I love you more than I thought I did.

You take the both of us,And we're the perfect two.

Happy Burfday Papa!

Dad for all those times, I left it unsaid,Thank You.
Thanks for being there for me.
For being patient with me even when I made it difficult for you.
For believing in me & encouraging me.
For all of my childhood memories.
For helping me deal with life's stresses.
For helping me accept my defeats.
For teaching me the value of hard work,good judgment, courage & being true
For the laughter, smiles & quiet times we've shared.
Did I ever thank you? 

If I have forgotten, I'm thanking you now.

So many wonderful moments we have spent together.
So many wonderful years in all kinds of weather.
You taught me right from wrong.
I hope you know how much you're loved & appreciated.
I hope you, instinctively, knew it all along.

 

xoxo

In between.

ℬℯℓℓℯ ℬℯℓℓℯ is standing on a line between giving up & seeing how much more she can take. 

 

You & I collide.

I've realized that to prove love, it is not about how long you’ve been together / how close / happy you are. It is in how many times you argue & reconcile & encounter differences but still choose to be with each other. You're always lighting up my heart with the things you do & say. I'm happy just being with you this way. You make me feel loved & worthy of love. Thank you for loving me.Your affection is so important to me especially rite now. Misunderstandings are inevitable. You cannot avoid stepping on each others toes. The only thing you can do is to be as considerate as possible & apologize when you have wronged her / him. I’ve realized that it’s possible to do what people would normally label as indignifying & do out it of hope & love.

I love him enough to say it here. I love him enough to tell him this myself & most of all, I love myself enough to give myself a chance at something that could be beautiful.

The last key.

This battlefield is getting more & more furious day by day. I'm beginning to lose grip to everything. Sigh! Oh life. However Belle Belle is not gonna give up just like that. I will work harder & smarter & will fight for what's worth fighting for. It's often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock they always say. I've to figure out how to find the keys within my heart & mind in order to unlock each new gate.

It's a fact that many of us have experienced the rough ride to nowhere. We put so much passion & efforts in the life direction we want but we still don't seem to get there. I believe it is important before you quit / even before you start anything,  be clear that what you are trying to achieve is something that you really want in life & which will ultimately propel you forward to your end goal.

I hate this part right here.

 

18.02.2011

You know he really cares when he asks what’s wrong & when you tell him nothing, he stays there waiting for the real reason.

Life's philosophy.

I believe that by being positive & staying focused on your own success, it might just create a chain of events, but you see that is something you don't deal with BUT allow it to happen on its own, whether you like it/not. The hardest part is to be assured that things will work out on its own & not everything can be achieved within your own hands. Sometimes we have to let go of things we want/people we love in order to explore & find ourselves, & most importantly to have faith that we will find ourselves amongst the chaos & distractions. DON'T get me wrong, I'm not letting go of anyone / anything. I'm just pointing out life's philosophy.

Satisfaction is not when I have everything I want. It's when I feel happy about everything I have & my value as a person is not measured with the things I own. My past encounters with people & situations made me who I am, but my thoughts & believes will determine my future. When I plan for my life, it's better to set standards & qualities & time-scheduling. However,sometimes opportunities come in unexpected times. As the saying goes, "Expect the unexpected, predict the unpredictable". 

He who knows others is learned; he who knows himself is wise ;)

Good day || Bad day.

People smile when they wanna cry.They laugh when they wanna scream/shout. They pretend like nothing is wrong because they don’t wanna face the truth. It's not always rainbows & butterflies. Sometimes you gotta scream & cry your anger & sadness to the world, because you can only hold it in for so long before something in you snaps. So peeps, when you wanna cry, cry. When you wanna scream, scream. Don’t hide behind fake smiles. It’s okay to not be alright.

Never enough.

Is it true then that all we have and want is a never ending cycle of hoping for what we wish we had? Can we just be in the moment without ever needing/wanting more?*ponders blankly*Okay I suppose we should all look forward, we should all expect more & that it should never be enough to have enough. Make sense?

V-Day!

Valentine's day shouldn't stand out too much from other days as you should be treating your partner & loved ones good all the time. *Blessed Valentine's* ♡

 xoxo

Break a leg.

Paper in less than 24 hours. Lotsa luck needed. Break a leg!

Hoping for the best, prepared for the worst.

Self assesment.

I believe I live sparingly, afraid of mistakes & trusting people. I've been inspired to see beyond just myself & to appreciate everything I have - my family, my home, you, my friend, my dog, everyone & everything else. My life has always had reasons in which I dont really know how to explain. I believe it is people - family, you, friends, acquaintances & "chance" encounters which have always inspired me, mold me & made me who I am today.

Recently, I found myself thinking more about my attitudes in life. The way I receive & react to certain situations. I found that I am truly an irrational person at times & that my reactions are pretty impulsive. I've also begun to see the need to act as an individual & to do things for myself, instead of worrying about how to please/satisfy others. 

Years from now I'll look back & laugh at the crazy & reckless things I did. I don't wanna look back years from now & never be able to see myself struggle & to find happy endings. We may believe that we deserve something, but if we don't speak up, say something/do anything to even move an inch closer to what we want, the chances are, nothing is going to change. This is a pretty random post I know. So yea. Good Day peeps! xx 

What does it mean to be somebody?

Tough decisions & limited options.

Decisions are always the hardest to make.Sigh.

DON'T.

DON’T

Don’t care so much for me,

I may get used to it.

Don’t come so near to me,

I may not be able to detach from it.

Don’t put so much faith in me,

I may not be able to handle it.

Don’t touch me the way u do,

I may not be able to get over it.

Don’t become a part of my life,

Coz without u, I won’t be able to live it.

Don’t make me fall for u,

I may not be able to fall out of it.

Don’t come into my life,

If u have to leave one day.

Don’t give me the hope,

That it’s forever u r gonna stay.

Coz love is an emotion

I won’t be able to hide,

When love isn’t reciprocated with love,

It hurts deep down inside.

Don’t start something

That I won’t be able to end.

 

Thanx for sharing this with me A.B.

Like heavy clouds in the sky.

You don't always have to win your battles, but it's good to know you fought

I am who I am.

 

I believe that when people shut their minds and shut their hearts, they will refuse to understand you.

Emotional Destruction.

You got to admit that sometimes it's better to leave things unsaid & unknown.What's the point of bringing them up if argument is the only consequences? Perhaps, it's because of different living environment, different personality, different maturity, different perspectives & whatsoever. Desperation sets in making me go into depression.

Note : Even you stand up with your greatest strength & speak it out loud, there's no guarantee that you gonna get the responses that you've expected.

Silence is a girl's loudest cry.

We'll be okay.

Distance has always been an issue for the both of us. The weekends without seeing each other, the arguments because of our frustration. I've come to realize, that the one thing that got us through, was not the lovey-dovey text messages / phone calls / the promises that we believed in. It was the fact, that we knew we would hold each other again & we would be okay.

Because you stood by me & for me.

There’s evidence that proves, That you were heaven sent
‘Cos when I needed rescuin’, You were there at my defence

Panic.

Among all my bad habits, there’s one I resolve to kick by this year - PROCRASTINATION! The fault lies not wholly with time, but with me as well. Brilliant reminders about ‘doing’ rather than ‘thinking of doing’ have been popping up all over for me in the past 24 hour(several over the weekend). I've an assignment due today (2pm) and progress is only what, 10 - 15 %. What am I doing? Oh Gosh! I just cant stay focus which leads to me staring at the computer blankly for hours. Okay Belle Belle should stop.right.here. *PANICS* 

Far from being the thief of Time, procrastination is the king of it.

It's okay not to be okay at times.

I thought I was okay for awhile, but I'm starting to think differently. When most people ask, "are you okay?" they do expect & want to hear, "YES." At times I do say, "YES" just because it's easier. But now I'm starting to wonder, what if I tell people that I'm not okay?  I feel like it'll make me a weaker person & I don't know if people actually want to hear about my negative feelings & the same time, however, I know I need to get everything out somehow. Probably I've not found the right time to pour everything out at the moment. Or may be I've found the right time but someone has no time to listen to me at the moment? Somebody needs a hug!

A little personal attention, some good ol' loving & affection.

Beauty/Brains?

What is beauty if the brain is empty

Psycho!

To the inhuman psycho who thinks it's COOL to torture your poor lil' adorable poodle, screw you! It's a puppy you fool! It aint no human. How do you expect it to stand? What do you freaking get outta your inhuman acts? You think by recording & posting it up you'll earn buckaroos with the "$$$ earn per view/vote/click" concept? You're indirectly filing a suit against yourself you moron!You're digging your own grave!

Why not you try doing a handstand on the highest floor of a building? See if you'll fall to death. Get it recorded as well & better still, get the same person who recorded your brainless acts towards the poodle to do it for you. If you do believe in re-incarnation,regardless of whatever animal you turn into, you'll never live long too as KARMA will kick you in the ass! CLICK HERE to view the full video of the psycho's brainless acts.

Grateful.

Had an awesome day yesterday! All thanx to BS *grins* It's the little things that count & no one could do the little things you do. Oh thanks a bunch to my dear friends as well. I dont lupa kawans okay! Just weeks ago my spirit was crushed & I was discouraged about almost everything. When I kept tripping over obstacles in my path, I started questioning why must God allow me to go through fucked up sucky situations & stuff. (Yea, I know I shouldnt question God). However at the end of the day, I realized that God just wanted to teach me to trust him more & build my character. How do we grow if we don't experience challenges /difficult circumstances? When we're diligent to remember God's faithfulness of yesterday, we will surely find confidence in His sufficiency for today. Amen! Pwease ponder peeps! 

Joshua 1:9.
"Have i not commanded you? be strong and courageous! do not be terrified, do not be discouraged for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."
 

Where God guides, God provides ;)

Chaotic but organized.

Some people might say life sucks / life is full of shyt! While others say life is beautifool beautiful / full of surprises. Life is whatever you think of it ,whatever you make of it or say of it. Life for me usually feels chaotic,out of control. People look at me & think I have it all together. Oh, how wrong they are. I often feel lost & am unsure as to whether I’m actually making progress / merely walking in circles. *shrugs*  

Every time I plan things, something else happens anyways & then somewhere along the line someone is disappointed. I do make “game plans”, but those are subject to change as I ultimately don’t have any control over the future anyways. We cant predict the future. We would not know what will happen when.Hmmm. Oh life! There were many times in my life where I was very depressed  & felt that life was pointless. I get this empty feelings in my chest & I wanna cry but I can't. I'm strong & Ive always been able to keep a smile on my face but it's getting harder & harder these days. *screams* Thoughts in my head are just empty, like everything else around me. I sound so cliche, but I can't help how I feel. I know I sound as if I'm about to give up in life or something but hey peeps, pwease dont get me wrong. I'm a tough cookie remember? *grins* Belle Belle believes that when the going gets tough, the tough gets going babeyyh!

Godma sent me a text last nite & I wanna share with you peeps :

Finish every day & be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders & absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely & with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.

 Alright peeps. Enough said. Have a jolly good weekend with your loved ones. xx

To be a star, you must shine your own light, 

follow your own path & don’t worry about the darkness,

for that is when the stars shine brightest.

Walls.

I cant read minds, especially yours.

Bad days will pass.

I’m not always as confident as I seem. There are many nights & days when all I want is to be held. Sometimes I don’t want to talk about what is bothering me. Sometimes I just want a hug. I don't know why I feel so weak these days. I don't know how to express this feeling I'm having deep inside my heart. It's as if I have nothing else to play, except my last Joker card. Hmmm. But I know these moments will pass, although they may seem long. Dear God, pwease continue to bless & guide me. Amen!

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

I'm just a regular girl with the same challenges, health issues, personal problems that any one of you may find yourself having to overcome on your path to achieving your ideal bombastic life. Last year, I've had quite a few obstacles to conquer. There've been plenty of weak moments along the way. *shrugs*

Started off this year beautifully, till yesterday! I was more than a robot! Running around, taking care of a million tasks at once, worrying & over-caring about everything & everyone but myself. Long story cut short, it was heart wrenching & mind effing. I almost lost sight of what's truly important in life. Talk about priorities. *Tsk*

Whatever it is, I pray for better days ahead! I believe that with every hardship, we emerge stronger. Have a fruitful weekend ahead with your loved ones peeps! xx

Live.Love.Laugh.

Life is the only chance you get,
how you live it, what you take from it,
how much you give back,
& doing the best with what you have.

Live well peeps.
In all you do,
Though paths be old/paths be new,
Be yourself & Be ever true.

 Live.Love.Laugh