Because you stood by me & for me.

There’s evidence that proves, That you were heaven sent
‘Cos when I needed rescuin’, You were there at my defence

Panic.

Among all my bad habits, there’s one I resolve to kick by this year - PROCRASTINATION! The fault lies not wholly with time, but with me as well. Brilliant reminders about ‘doing’ rather than ‘thinking of doing’ have been popping up all over for me in the past 24 hour(several over the weekend). I've an assignment due today (2pm) and progress is only what, 10 - 15 %. What am I doing? Oh Gosh! I just cant stay focus which leads to me staring at the computer blankly for hours. Okay Belle Belle should stop.right.here. *PANICS* 

Far from being the thief of Time, procrastination is the king of it.

It's okay not to be okay at times.

I thought I was okay for awhile, but I'm starting to think differently. When most people ask, "are you okay?" they do expect & want to hear, "YES." At times I do say, "YES" just because it's easier. But now I'm starting to wonder, what if I tell people that I'm not okay?  I feel like it'll make me a weaker person & I don't know if people actually want to hear about my negative feelings & the same time, however, I know I need to get everything out somehow. Probably I've not found the right time to pour everything out at the moment. Or may be I've found the right time but someone has no time to listen to me at the moment? Somebody needs a hug!

A little personal attention, some good ol' loving & affection.

Beauty/Brains?

What is beauty if the brain is empty

Psycho!

To the inhuman psycho who thinks it's COOL to torture your poor lil' adorable poodle, screw you! It's a puppy you fool! It aint no human. How do you expect it to stand? What do you freaking get outta your inhuman acts? You think by recording & posting it up you'll earn buckaroos with the "$$$ earn per view/vote/click" concept? You're indirectly filing a suit against yourself you moron!You're digging your own grave!

Why not you try doing a handstand on the highest floor of a building? See if you'll fall to death. Get it recorded as well & better still, get the same person who recorded your brainless acts towards the poodle to do it for you. If you do believe in re-incarnation,regardless of whatever animal you turn into, you'll never live long too as KARMA will kick you in the ass! CLICK HERE to view the full video of the psycho's brainless acts.

Grateful.

Had an awesome day yesterday! All thanx to BS *grins* It's the little things that count & no one could do the little things you do. Oh thanks a bunch to my dear friends as well. I dont lupa kawans okay! Just weeks ago my spirit was crushed & I was discouraged about almost everything. When I kept tripping over obstacles in my path, I started questioning why must God allow me to go through fucked up sucky situations & stuff. (Yea, I know I shouldnt question God). However at the end of the day, I realized that God just wanted to teach me to trust him more & build my character. How do we grow if we don't experience challenges /difficult circumstances? When we're diligent to remember God's faithfulness of yesterday, we will surely find confidence in His sufficiency for today. Amen! Pwease ponder peeps! 

Joshua 1:9.
"Have i not commanded you? be strong and courageous! do not be terrified, do not be discouraged for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."
 

Where God guides, God provides ;)

Chaotic but organized.

Some people might say life sucks / life is full of shyt! While others say life is beautifool beautiful / full of surprises. Life is whatever you think of it ,whatever you make of it or say of it. Life for me usually feels chaotic,out of control. People look at me & think I have it all together. Oh, how wrong they are. I often feel lost & am unsure as to whether I’m actually making progress / merely walking in circles. *shrugs*  

Every time I plan things, something else happens anyways & then somewhere along the line someone is disappointed. I do make “game plans”, but those are subject to change as I ultimately don’t have any control over the future anyways. We cant predict the future. We would not know what will happen when.Hmmm. Oh life! There were many times in my life where I was very depressed  & felt that life was pointless. I get this empty feelings in my chest & I wanna cry but I can't. I'm strong & Ive always been able to keep a smile on my face but it's getting harder & harder these days. *screams* Thoughts in my head are just empty, like everything else around me. I sound so cliche, but I can't help how I feel. I know I sound as if I'm about to give up in life or something but hey peeps, pwease dont get me wrong. I'm a tough cookie remember? *grins* Belle Belle believes that when the going gets tough, the tough gets going babeyyh!

Godma sent me a text last nite & I wanna share with you peeps :

Finish every day & be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders & absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely & with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.

 Alright peeps. Enough said. Have a jolly good weekend with your loved ones. xx

To be a star, you must shine your own light, 

follow your own path & don’t worry about the darkness,

for that is when the stars shine brightest.

Walls.

I cant read minds, especially yours.

Bad days will pass.

I’m not always as confident as I seem. There are many nights & days when all I want is to be held. Sometimes I don’t want to talk about what is bothering me. Sometimes I just want a hug. I don't know why I feel so weak these days. I don't know how to express this feeling I'm having deep inside my heart. It's as if I have nothing else to play, except my last Joker card. Hmmm. But I know these moments will pass, although they may seem long. Dear God, pwease continue to bless & guide me. Amen!

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

I'm just a regular girl with the same challenges, health issues, personal problems that any one of you may find yourself having to overcome on your path to achieving your ideal bombastic life. Last year, I've had quite a few obstacles to conquer. There've been plenty of weak moments along the way. *shrugs*

Started off this year beautifully, till yesterday! I was more than a robot! Running around, taking care of a million tasks at once, worrying & over-caring about everything & everyone but myself. Long story cut short, it was heart wrenching & mind effing. I almost lost sight of what's truly important in life. Talk about priorities. *Tsk*

Whatever it is, I pray for better days ahead! I believe that with every hardship, we emerge stronger. Have a fruitful weekend ahead with your loved ones peeps! xx

Live.Love.Laugh.

Life is the only chance you get,
how you live it, what you take from it,
how much you give back,
& doing the best with what you have.

Live well peeps.
In all you do,
Though paths be old/paths be new,
Be yourself & Be ever true.

 Live.Love.Laugh

Where's the Uhmm?

Do you know that feeling when you sincerely try, you try everyday, though it doesnt bring about any result, yet you do it anyway? You keep going & going simply because you know its the right thing to do. Kinda hurts right now. I do not know what else is in my power that i can do to better the situation. I've done all that i could and still it proves to be fruitless. Whats worse, my trying to be good sometimes does no good at all. However, I'll continue trying even though I'm really tired of trying. It has been a lazy Sunday today & I've been staying in bed all day reading,replying & fwding mails, screening through assignments & so forth, FB-ing, Twitter-ing & YouTube-ing. Gotta get my heavy bum outta bed. A long list of chores to be done.Till then. xx

Dear MONDAY, pwease go far far awayyyy! ;(

Positive anything is better than negative nothing.

 Lappie batt died on me leaving me with three options :

1. Get a new batt that is a tad too pricy which I kinda think it's not worth it.
2. Get a netbook for the sake of portability
3. Get my butt glued to the same chair at the same place while doing my stuff simply because I've to connect my lappie to the power supply. In that case, goodbye portability! 

I’m aching to the bone right now. Down with fever & sore throat. Yikes! However, everything I set out to do so far, got done. And I hope this kind of run continues til the end of the year. Am praying for a speedy recover as I've got errands & notches to settle & get them done with.

Lets just hope & cont' praying for better days ahead & most importantly,to stay positive.

Just living is not enough.  One must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower.

Hello to a fresh start.

Alright peeps.It's a brand new year with new beginnings,new opportunities,new hopes & new everything.And yeap I've decided to start a fresh new blog as well with less rants & ramblings hopefully *grins*

Stuffs I wanna work on:

• Patience 
• Temperamental issues // Easily raged up
• Gentleness // I'm rough & brutal at times
• Stubbornness // I've a thick skull
• Crazy eating disorder // I'm humongous
• Slow in speech // I speak like a bullet train
• Procrastination
• Negativity // Gotta gather more positive vibes
• Be less cynical/naive & never trust dumbly or blindly 

Stuffs I wanna do more:

• Cultivate relationships
• Be nicer than nice to everyone around me // *Everyone - Restricted to certain groups of peeps ONLY.
• Exercise & eat healthily 
• Laugh more 
• Stay firm to the fact that everything happens for a reason even if it means learning the hard way // Not just merely believing but finding out the reasons!

Cheers to a brand new start peeps! xx

 Today, I wanna be better than yesterday.Tomorrow, I must be better than today ;)