Doubts.

Have you even give up on something because you either thought you would never do well enough for it, or that it was too difficult and not worth all your time? I have. Also along the way I have started to doubt myself and everything I believe in. I have grown distant from the person that I once was, & have grown into someone who constantly tries to live up to expectations surrounding my studies & at the same time, trying to juggle responsibilities as well.  

Realization hits me that I've been giving in too much to my emotions lately. I question myself everyday if I'm good enough to explore the things that I've never thought I'm capable of, if I'm good enough to love myself, if I'm good enough to not let my parents down with their high expectations on me, if I'm good enough for YOU or simply, if I'm good enough to understand anything at all.

At times I just wanna run away from matters because of the insufficient courage I have & the lack of faith, especially in believing & hope.

Believe.

Its like my heart drank Red Bull cause it just won't stop racing! I'm so nervous & I think I'm gonna pass out anytime soon! Sometimes, the only thing we can do is wake up each day & dream up a world in which we could live in. Sometimes, the only way is to have hope & in spite of it all, we hold our head up high & take on whatever comes our way knowing that all ends well. Alright. Enough said. In dire need of all the luck in the world.  

Today I could be content, but if I woke up tomorrow, I want to be living life worth being contented for. 

 

2 years & 3 months.

When I need someone to laugh with, you are always there. When I need someone to lean on, you are always there. When I'm silly & stupid, you are always there! LOL! & in times of sorrow & times of joy, you are always there for me.

You are not looking for perfection, not judgmental. You are patient, kind, thoughtful & everything nice! You posses all the qualities one could possibly want. Happy Anniversary to us. 2 years & 3 months & still counting! ♥

My pillar of strength & support.

The one who is always there for me to pick me up when I'm feeling down & knows the best ways to cheer  me up! So blessed!

Bittersweet.

For the past few days I’ve been trying to look at things from a different perspective. But, something just won’t stop haunting me. All the what ifs and what might have been. When you’re living for a reason & that reason is gone, tears start falling while your heart’s breaking but there’s nothing you can do to stop things from withering & then everything goes wrong. You feel all alone. Well, people always say that there’s a time to laugh & a time to cry, a time to say hello & a time to say goodbye. There’s a time to love & not to love. A time to hold on & a time to let go. *shrugs*

YOU came & you’ve seen through me & I guess I did the same thing for you too. But, what we thought was nothing turned out to be something more than we could possibly think of. Something that from the start until the end, we weren’t able to & still could not define. You see, it’s not something that was brought about by anything, no reasons, it just happened. Just like that. 

Gahh! I dont know what to say now. Everything is inevitable, so peeps, when you have it or you’re in a most favorable & happy moments, you gotta make the most out of it, because once it’s gone you’ll regret that you let the chance pass without giving your all, but if you did give it your everything, you have a lot of happy times to reminisce & treasure for the rest of your life. Life is short peeps! xx