Good Bye February!

We get hurt multiple times & keep running back to the same people.We love hard & hurt hard. We care too much. We’re never understood. We go through so much trouble when we don’t even notice. We hear what people say about us & sometimes we break inside. But no matter what, even after everything, we have to come out strong. We have to put a big smile on our faces and pretend like everything’s okay. We love even though we know we shouldn’t & we wait for something that’ll never happen. We’re so much more than what you think. So much more than what we seem. A very random post to end my entry for the month of February. Good Bye February! You certainly proved that I know how to pack a lot of stuff into a short month.

You're the apple to my pie.

So we've only known each other for a couple of years, but I feel I've known you my whole life. I've seen you grow. I've watched you change from the guy who couldn't make up his mind, who's feelings changed more than I knew was possible, to the guy you are now. *grins* You're responsible, devoted, loyal, considerate & loving. Everything I knew you were & know you always will be. I've seen everything, your anger, your battles, your struggles, your fears. I know you by heart. I know your values, I know your story, I know your secrets.

I still believe that, with all of my heart. I am still in this. I said I was in for the long haul & I am still striving everyday for our time. I'm not going down without a fight. I won't give up easy. These feelings are stronger than anything that could try to bring us down. I love you more than I thought I did.

You take the both of us,And we're the perfect two.

Happy Burfday Papa!

Dad for all those times, I left it unsaid,Thank You.
Thanks for being there for me.
For being patient with me even when I made it difficult for you.
For believing in me & encouraging me.
For all of my childhood memories.
For helping me deal with life's stresses.
For helping me accept my defeats.
For teaching me the value of hard work,good judgment, courage & being true
For the laughter, smiles & quiet times we've shared.
Did I ever thank you? 

If I have forgotten, I'm thanking you now.

So many wonderful moments we have spent together.
So many wonderful years in all kinds of weather.
You taught me right from wrong.
I hope you know how much you're loved & appreciated.
I hope you, instinctively, knew it all along.

 

xoxo

In between.

ℬℯℓℓℯ ℬℯℓℓℯ is standing on a line between giving up & seeing how much more she can take. 

 

You & I collide.

I've realized that to prove love, it is not about how long you’ve been together / how close / happy you are. It is in how many times you argue & reconcile & encounter differences but still choose to be with each other. You're always lighting up my heart with the things you do & say. I'm happy just being with you this way. You make me feel loved & worthy of love. Thank you for loving me.Your affection is so important to me especially rite now. Misunderstandings are inevitable. You cannot avoid stepping on each others toes. The only thing you can do is to be as considerate as possible & apologize when you have wronged her / him. I’ve realized that it’s possible to do what people would normally label as indignifying & do out it of hope & love.

I love him enough to say it here. I love him enough to tell him this myself & most of all, I love myself enough to give myself a chance at something that could be beautiful.